like a specimen under a microscope

so I’ve been doing billing for almost 2 months now with my Cali-based employer. To monitor our productivity, they have installed timedoctor in our desktop. Before, that tracker used to take random screenshot of our active window and will stop time tracking once our window become idle for 8-10 minutes. However, just recently, they have taken the monitoring to a new level, they also take webcam shots every 10 minutes now and it’s really irritating coz it makes me feel like the big Boss is sitting right beside me looking exactly at my every movement.

I mentioned this to his Filipina VA (virtual assistant)and she said that webcam shots has been there for quite some time, perhaps, mine was just activated a little late. Oh well, perhaps big B’s got a lot of trust issues. Anyhow, I recently intereacted with a co-biller and she said she wasn’t comfortable having her photo taken thru webcam and she had covered hers since she started home-based job and big B hasn’t scolded her about it yet. She added it wasn’t on the print she signed therefore she’ll continue covering her webcam until she gets reprimanded. I was thinking of doing the same but I couldn’t find a good reason to justify why I’ll be covering it since I had mine started taking photos like 2 days ago and I didn’t complain.

Hmm. Oh I also learned that Big B really has some trust issues and he’s a little stingy. They said he doesn’t give increases and bonuses which makes me a little disappointed and made me think of finding another one. His VA for example has another client aside from Big B so I was hoping I could find another client too. Well, wish me luck. Hope that webcam shots won’t be taking photos lesser than 10 minutes or else…hayyy.


just like he was mine

so my husband posted this on my FB’s timeline and I got so kilig and touched at the same time and I don’t want other people to think we’re paBebe so instead of posting it back to his FB’s timeline, I decided to post it here😳

but yeah I’ll also post this on IG so keribels sa mga ampalaya😝

Just my two cents

Recently my 2nd elder sister posted a status update in FB saying “kelan ko kaya ulit makikita ang mga barkada ko, namimiss ko na sila”. My husband’s always updated on Fb and he immediately related my sister’s status update to me saying it’s inappropriate to post something like that considering my sister’s got huge responsibility having 7 kids on her back (one’s with us so there’s 6 remaining kids). I replied saying “tao pa din naman siya”. I mean I know my sister can really be selfish at times but I also know she cares for her kids. I mean once you become a parent, do you have to lose yourself in the process of being one? I don’t think so. I mean, your kids have to come first most of the time like 99% but isn’t it fair to keep atleast 1% for yourself? Otherwise how else would you keep your sanity? Perhaps those know-it-alls parents or not would say that’s bull because once you subjected yourself into creating another life, you have to be responsible for them like for the rest of your life. I don’t remember who said this to me not sure if it’s my mom or my sister, “kapag nagka-anak ka na, sa kanila na iikot ang mundo mo”. I mean this could be partly true coz nowadays my world literally revolves around my kids. I couldn’t remember the last time I stepped out of the house without my kids with me. Even when I work they’re with me though not the whole 8 hours otherwise they’ll throw into a tantrum.

Having kids will literally turn your world upside down. They did mine. But do I regret having them?No. I would always choose a life with them in it. But if I could go back, perhaps I would have had them at a later time when we have everything ready, house of our own, stable source of income where we don’t have to worry about what’s going to happen in the future. That could have been better but anyway I guess life’s like that, it always happens the least we expect it will.

Ooopps, this post got longer than it should. I just hope everything will turn out fine. Hope my kids will turn out happy and kind. I hope my parenting wouldn’t suck as I’m expecting it would. Hahaha. I think I talked too much today I mean I typed too much rather. Lack of sleep does that to you I guess.

Before I further blabber nonsense, I’d have to take off because I’m still working at this hour. 40 minutes more before my log out time. Shhh my son’s sleeping. Gotta shut up now.

I’m not yet ready

I think I haven’t talked about my niece here in my blog. I’m not sure, maybe I have to do some backreading later.

Anyway, yeah, this blog post is about her. She recently moved here with us from Tacloban after having consecutive failing grades (and when I say fail, her grades were way below average, I mean I haven’t encountered anyone in my entire life having a 59 or was it 69 in one of the subjects in high school. That’s how bad it is.)

She used to be an achiever. When she was still living with my mom and hitler, every school year, my mom gets to go up stage putting medals on her. She grew up with us, growing up to be a lola’s girl. However, when she moved to live with her mom (my elder sister) it’s like the world turned up side down. What used to be an achiever kid transformed into a problematic slash rebel teenager. Maybe she was cultured-shock? Maybe my elder sister didn’t paid much attention to her the way she did with her other 6 kids? I don’t know. Since time immemorial, my elder sister isn’t known to be affectionate, actually, all of us aren’t. In addition, she really didn’t want her at first, I was there when this this kid was born, maybe post partum depression? I don’t know too. It’s like she really doesn’t care much about her compare to her other kids. She says she’s bad luck (that was when she was a baby that’s why she grew up with us, she even mistaken my mom for her mom growing up). My sister says she’s seeing so much of herself in her that’s why she’s always irritated to her. She said my niece is hard-headed, lazy in studying, always loves to hang around with her posse. I knew this kid and she was the sweetest before. Now, I find it difficult to reach out to her, I mean she’s here prancing around with her smiling face but I feel that invisible barrier between us. I mean I already find it hard to relate to people my age, how much more trying to relate to a teenager. Would you believe I even Googled how to interact and discipline teenagers? Gosh how pathetic could I get? I just realized I’m miles away from being ready to seeing my kids grow up.

Hope it would turn out fine. I hope I could atleast make a little positive impact on the life of my niece if not change her life for the better.

Grabe. Paano ba maging mabuting ina sa batang hindi naman sayo galing? Eh ung anak ko nga nangangapa na ako hahay. Napatagalog na ako hahaha nakakanosebleed din eh.

Peace out. Sa wakas natapos din bagi maipublish ulit. Try lang ung kanina. Hindi ko alam kung sino kina ariana, piatot at baste ang aksidenteng nakapindot ng publish.


ethical legal at kung ano pang al

After getting myself a permanent online job with a fixed salary, I decided to take a break from my 51talk stint and submitted a month vacation just to see how would it go with my new job. So far so good. Unfortunately, the online support of 51talk didn’t even acknowledge my email so I guess this would be it? Goodbye online tutoring for now, perhaps my account is already locked though I haven’t tried logging in again.

Anyhow, my one and only loyalist student Lily recently sent me a message via WeChat telling me she misses me very much, when am I going back and telling me she doesn’t want any other teachers (you see, before I went on a 51talk hiatus I told her I’ll be gone for a while and advice her to try other teachers so her English skills would be further developed. It’s just 3 days ago that I learned she stopped attending her 51talk classes because she doesn’t want to see other teachers. I told my husband about Lily and he said why not offer her a special tutoring lessons via Skype instead. I was actually undecided whether to follow his advice because one, I don’t know what lessons should I teach Lily; two, I don’t know how to make Lesson memo by myself coz in 51talk lessons are prepared firsthand you just have to teach it to your students, and three, I’m afraid I’ll get sued😫 hahaha isn’t unethical and illegal to do that? It’s like I’m stealing one of their students.

Oh well, I’m not even sure I could keep up having another job aside from my current one but I’ll think about it.

Ooops, 10 minutes got deducted from my working time, my bad, trying to blog through my phone and work at the same time, not a very good idea but hey, I just missed blogging, you know😛

This is me trying to put order in my chaotic life


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I finally got myself a corkboard to put my working schedule and reminders! congratulations to me! (giving myself a pat on the back)

I hope this is a start of me being organized. I wish hahaha

It’s been a while again. My work is a little relax actually but there’s a time tracker installed in our desktop where they could monitor my pc activities taking screenshots of my monitor from time to time so I cannot update my blog simultaneously while working and I don’t like blogging using my mobile so yeah, (as if someone’s giving an F why I’ve been a while, etchos lang haha)

My first payment from my online job

It’s been a while folks!

After countless of online application, I have finally landed myself an online job, I hope this would be “it”. (the online job I can count on and the job perfect for a breastfeeding mom like me.) I’ve been busy lately because I just started my training (paid! :))  as a Dental Biller last January 24 (that would be January 23 in California because that’s where my boss is based from). It looks like I won’t be getting away from the Dental department but it’s nice because at least I have backgrounds regarding Dental terminologies etcetera.

Anyhow, after 6 days of working, I finally got my first payment in Paypal! Yey! It’s not much but I’m ecstatic when I found out my boss already sent my salary just now. Our pay periods are as follow:

Days and hours from 25th – 9th paid on 15th of the month

Days and hours from 10th -24th paid on 30th of the month

So since I started January 24, my salary is only equivalent to 12 hours of my working time but I am not complaining. I think it pays way better than my 51talk tutoring gig. I still find the work a little hard but it’s nice because most of the time (like 85% of the time), it’s non-voice and I only do skype call whenever my boss needs to inform me about something work-related or I have to validate information with my supervisor or with other clinics that we handle.


Tada! that’s the screenshot of the Paypal email I received earlier. I hope to receive more emails like these. hahaha

ooopppp!my kids are awake! gotta go! till next time!

I just had to write this down..

I was about to edit my online resume when my husband called my attention to check out my ex-coworker new facebook post and voila, the dental clinic in the UAE I used to work at has changed into a state-of-the-art medical facility and is now being called a medical center. They even got uniforms with the facility’s name on it. Something we used to daydream about back when we were still scrubbing floors and windows of the cheap old building our doctors back then used to rent. To be honest, I was a little envious because that has always been my dream before, wearing a uniform that boasts the medical facility where I work. (petty, right?) When I saw the grand building where my old colleagues are standing with their faces lit, I started thinking, what if I didn’t quit and what if I came back during that time (that time when I’m supposed to go back to the UAE but did not because I don’t want to leave my Piatot behind and also, I had a very bad experience with them when I came back after my delivery so I swear I won’t come back ever) so yeah, after some thinking, I realized, I’m never coming back even if they offered me a job. I wouldn’t want to leave my kids behind and of course, it wouldn’t be the same. I’m not the same person as I was before so I’m not sure if I still have the tolerance to play their games. Anyway, I’m not even sure if I would ever wear a nursing uniform again. I just like the idea. I don’t know. I’m not even sure what’s gonna happen to me next. Just wanted to enjoy the time I have with my kids and husband. Okay. I’m still a little envious.  I’ll just think of something else. peace out.

New beginnings

One week has already passed since 2018. It’s been a very hectic and busy week for me. For one, I haven’t finished my Upwork freelance job which is supposedly good for a week only. Next is, I submitted lots of online applications and have scheduled interviews here and there (I even have an upcoming interview next Wednesday, good luck to me) also, interviews comes with tryouts so I have a long list of stuff to be done.  Unfortunately, I haven’t landed any permanent online job yet aside from my online tutorial. I’m still doing my ESL online tutorial and fortunately, almost all of my opened slots are booked.

Oh, I also submitted my resignation on my previous job which my TL didn’t take lightly because she guaranteed to the big bosses that I’d come back when I asked for a maternity leave extension so another bad record for me. I actually like my previous job minus the commuting part which takes ages, but, unfortunately, no one will be able to look after my 4-month-old baby because he has the tendency to cry non-stop at night and no one can soothe him except me (they tried but failed) so I have no option but to quit my job) My TL offered another ML extension because I reasoned for medical issues but I’m still undecided because I’m not sure what will be our plan for the future. I also don’t want to make promises I can’t keep and also wouldn’t want to put the company in jeopardy. I actually feel very guilty because my team’s performance would also be affected because I’m leaving, also, I had a good record before I went on leave but my kids come first.


Anyhow, I’ll be texting my TL about my decision and I’m sure I’ll be scolded again because I am informing late again but que sera sera. I’m not a very good decision maker but they say bad decisions make good stories, don’t they?

I just have to trust that there is something good in every goodbye…

trust the magic of new beginnings

year ender

2017  is a tough year for me. but yes, here I am, still alive and kicking.

Though this year has brought many struggles, I have also been showered with lots of blessings.

This year, we welcomed the new addition to our family, my son Sebastian. Though my pregnancy and delivery had been tough, God has made me even tougher and for that, I am very thankful.

Also, 2017 brought me my first online job and that is my being an ESL online tutor. In addition, I got my one-time project based job in Upwork (kahit 1 week lang at maliit ang bayad atleast may trabaho at dagdag sa experience at portfolio)

Another thing, I got myself enrolled in 2 online courses which I have yet to finish, hoping I’d be able to finish it in time before I attended my Freelancer online training next year. ooppps that’s like in 1 day? good luck to me, hahaha

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So yeah, 2017 had not been bad as I had expected it to be. I’m a bit doubtful whether 2018 would be a good year for me but as the saying goes, habang may buhay may pag-asa (as long as you are alive, you have hope, tama ba? hahaha)

So before 2017 ends, let me greet everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR! good luck to us all! 😛