hinalukay ko na ang merriam webster dictionary app sa celepono at naggoogle na ako ng mas magandang termino sa word na rejected pero wala talaga eh, what word would suffice to tell you that you’re not qualified in a way that you won’t feel bad? Yung tipong break it to me gently ang peg. Parang wala naman ata.
Ganito kasi yun, I recently received an email from a scholarship body which I applied 2 months ago. Actually, nakalimutan ko na nga na nag-apply ako until I read the email. It says my application was unsuccessful as it has not met the required continuation criteria, it also says that the decision is final and they could not provide further details. Okay. Another blow to my already bruised ego. It doesn’t hurt as much as the first time (first time rejection sucks) but it still stings a little. Oo, suntok sa buwan naman kasi talaga yun but there’s that 0.5 percent in me na umasa ng konti na baka sakali makalusot. Pero siguro nga hindi para sakin yun. I didn’t even pray hard enough to get it. Kasi sa tingin ko kung para sakin, para sakin talaga kung hindi edi move on. Pero parang ang saya lang kasi makapasa sa scholarship grant tapos depende sayo kung iggrab mo siya or hindi. o diba ang babaw ng rason ko hahaha. anyways I have lots of things to consider now. Aside from the fact that I’m no longer single (I’m triple hahaha), kakasign ko nga lang pala ng job contract. And I just realized that even if I got the scholarship grant, I doubt I could leave my baby at the moment. Siguro nga hindi talaga para sakin. Pero ayun, may kagat nga sa pakiramdam, siguro ganito talaga pag nagkakaedad, hahaha, aren’t we getting sensitive? We talaga?nandamay pa ng iba?