the ultimate lazy man’s mug


when you’re a breasfeeding mom and balancing 2 jobs in the wee hours of the night, this is what you need for that coffee…

tada! the self-stirring mug! Just put coffee powder and hot water then press the “stir” button and you get yourself a coffee without doing the stirring effort yourself..

super effort ba ang paghahalo?sorry na,

I’m just lazy…hahahaha

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sa isang kisapmata


convo with Piatot

me: Pia, makinig ka sakin nak. wag ka na pupupu sa diaper, ha. big girl ka na.

Piatot: opo mommy

me: lagi mo sinasabing opo ginagawa mo pa din

Piatot: nuod ako Peppa Pig and George mommy kaya pupu ako diaper

me: hindi na un pwede big ka na nga (umiinit na ang ulo ko)

Piatot: mommy dami ko friends

me: iniiba mo na naman usapan eh

Piatot: dami ko friends, avery, anna, ate Diane

me: o tapos (wala na naiba na usapan)

Piatot: dami ko friends pero mommy bespren ko, bespren tayo mommy

me: (heart melting)

aughh wala lang

#mommymoments

#nakakakilig

when you had to deal with fears you never had


kahapon napanuod ko sa tv na ibinalita ung MOMO challenge kung saan nililink ung pagkamatay nung batang uminom ng 21 tabs of anti-gout. tapos nagbrowse ako sa fb at nakita ko na naman un. may nakita din akong post ng isang mom wherein while her daughter was watching Peppa Pig in Youtube kids, there was a sudden clip that was shown that gives step by step instruction on how to slice one’s wrist.

Ayun, kinilabutan ako ng bongga at nag-alala ng husto para kina Piatot at Bastelog ko. Jusme, anung klaseng mga tao naman ung gumagawa ng ganun. Bakit mga bata pa ung tinatarget nila.

Kakapanuod ko lang din ng babiesforsaleph ni Atom Araullo nung isang araw at sobra din akong naapektuhan. May mga batang ilang araw pa lang binebenta na ng magulang online tapos meron din nagnanakaw pa ng anak ng iba. Tapos meron pa na nangunguha ng bata para kuhaan ng internal organs. Jusmelord, iniisip ko pa lang gawin nila un sa anak ko, napapraning na ako na nababaliw na mamamatay.

dahil sa mga nababasa at napapanuod ko sa tv at online, parang gusto kong ibalik sa tyan ko ung dalawa kong junakis para lagi ko lang silang kasama. parang pwede naman un…hahaha

sabi ko sa nag-aalaga ng anak ko, oras na mangyari ung ganun sakin, (jusme ni sa panaginip wag naman) gagamitin ko lahat ng resources ko para huntingin ung gumawa ng game at pipira-pirasuhin ko sila, pag naman ung mga nangunguha ng bagets para ibenta or kuhanan ng organs, papahirapan ko sila ng husto hanggang sa iwish nila na sana hindi na lang sila pinanganak sa mundong ibabaw.

grabe. matagal ko nang alam na mahirap na maging nanay pero iba pa din pala pag ikaw na nakakaexperience, ganito pala na sobrang nakakapraning.

iniisip ko si mama. gaano kaya kahirap sa kanya na sobrang independent ako nun simula elem gang grumadweyt para pakawalan ako at hayaan akong gawin ang mga gusto ko ng mag-isa.

ako kaya pano ko un gagawin sa mga anak ko, hahaha

grabe. my thoughts are running wild at this wee hours of the night…

amazing Piatot


happy new year! my goodness, it’s been really a while since my last post here, so much had happened and stuff still keeps happening hahaha

anyways, I just had to share this one, otherwise I might forget about this..

yesterday, Piatot and I went to our evening worship service. She was still recuperating from 3 consecutive days of fever so I really expected she would just sit still until the service finishes. I was surprised when she jump from her seat and join a group of kids her age playing.

They were just quietly playing from the start until an elder kid joined them and started showing off her toys that she’d brought with her. They were amazed by her mini dolls and acted like they would want to borrow it from that kid. Unfortunately, the kid didn’t want to hand them her toys. This is what I heard from their convo

A (batang 1 month younger than Pia: Peram ako isa lang!

Pia (she was quietly looking at the kid’s mini dolls and she has that look that she wants to borrow it too but she didn’t reach for it)

Elder S (4-5years old): Bili to ng mommy ko sa mall binili niya ko ng witch saka rapunzel tapos dalawang baby dolls

Pia: (with an annoyed look on her face) dami ko toys bahay bili daddy ko, one two three (habang minumwestra ung daliri nya gano kadami toys nya nafeel niya siguro na niyayabangan siya nung batang babae hahaha)

Elder S: ako din dami bili ng mommy ko sa bahay

Pia: daddy ko dami dogs Elly chuchuy dami babbit one two three dami bahay

Elder S: kami ng momy ko bibili ng dog yung yellow

Pia: kami dami dogs bahay dami dami babbit dami baby babbit ibon pa dami

Elder S: Play na lang tayo to oh look eto ung witch (tapos kunwari lilipad ung isang mini doll nung batang babae)

Then they played again until the worship service finishes. I was quite amazed at how Piatot proudly tried to counter that elder kid showing off though she still cannot speak fluently. I knew that moment she’s not going to be someone who’ll be bullied hahaha I hope she’ll still be the same fighter when she grows up and if she ever forgets how to fight I hope this blog post would still be here so I have proof that she’s already a fighter at barely 3 years old😊

back from hiatus?


so there’s a lot going on right now, actually most of those are just happening inside my head and I just kind of lost the will to write something nice.

perhaps, the monotony of my homebased work is killing me or perhaps, I just don’t have it anymore, the drive to write something, well I’m not a writer in the first place and the reason I created this blog is to rant and stuff hahaha

and yeah, my boss is going to give me additional tasks and I’m past 6 months to this job and I’d like a salary raise which is next to impossible I think because I learned that my boss is a little stingy. I send him an email asking if those additional tasks comes with an increase and me passing the 6 months probation makes me eligible for an increase. did not receive a reply perhaps later today he’ll call and politely decline my request for a raise. so much for pessimism.

I just realised I haven’t doodled in a long time, I also haven’t updated my other site, so much to my disappointment coz I remember I told myself I’ll keep it updated as much as possible, have to find something motivating inside of me.

will have to sign out now because it’s already my lunch break..

Just my two cents


Recently my 2nd elder sister posted a status update in FB saying “kelan ko kaya ulit makikita ang mga barkada ko, namimiss ko na sila”. My husband’s always updated on Fb and he immediately related my sister’s status update to me saying it’s inappropriate to post something like that considering my sister’s got huge responsibility having 7 kids on her back (one’s with us so there’s 6 remaining kids). I replied saying “tao pa din naman siya”. I mean I know my sister can really be selfish at times but I also know she cares for her kids. I mean once you become a parent, do you have to lose yourself in the process of being one? I don’t think so. I mean, your kids have to come first most of the time like 99% but isn’t it fair to keep atleast 1% for yourself? Otherwise how else would you keep your sanity? Perhaps those know-it-alls parents or not would say that’s bull because once you subjected yourself into creating another life, you have to be responsible for them like for the rest of your life. I don’t remember who said this to me not sure if it’s my mom or my sister, “kapag nagka-anak ka na, sa kanila na iikot ang mundo mo”. I mean this could be partly true coz nowadays my world literally revolves around my kids. I couldn’t remember the last time I stepped out of the house without my kids with me. Even when I work they’re with me though not the whole 8 hours otherwise they’ll throw into a tantrum.

Having kids will literally turn your world upside down. They did mine. But do I regret having them?No. I would always choose a life with them in it. But if I could go back, perhaps I would have had them at a later time when we have everything ready, house of our own, stable source of income where we don’t have to worry about what’s going to happen in the future. That could have been better but anyway I guess life’s like that, it always happens the least we expect it will.

Ooopps, this post got longer than it should. I just hope everything will turn out fine. Hope my kids will turn out happy and kind. I hope my parenting wouldn’t suck as I’m expecting it would. Hahaha. I think I talked too much today I mean I typed too much rather. Lack of sleep does that to you I guess.

Before I further blabber nonsense, I’d have to take off because I’m still working at this hour. 40 minutes more before my log out time. Shhh my son’s sleeping. Gotta shut up now.

This is me trying to put order in my chaotic life


Charan!

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I finally got myself a corkboard to put my working schedule and reminders! congratulations to me! (giving myself a pat on the back)

I hope this is a start of me being organized. I wish hahaha

It’s been a while again. My work is a little relax actually but there’s a time tracker installed in our desktop where they could monitor my pc activities taking screenshots of my monitor from time to time so I cannot update my blog simultaneously while working and I don’t like blogging using my mobile so yeah, (as if someone’s giving an F why I’ve been a while, etchos lang haha)

My first payment from my online job


It’s been a while folks!

After countless of online application, I have finally landed myself an online job, I hope this would be “it”. (the online job I can count on and the job perfect for a breastfeeding mom like me.) I’ve been busy lately because I just started my training (paid! :))  as a Dental Biller last January 24 (that would be January 23 in California because that’s where my boss is based from). It looks like I won’t be getting away from the Dental department but it’s nice because at least I have backgrounds regarding Dental terminologies etcetera.

Anyhow, after 6 days of working, I finally got my first payment in Paypal! Yey! It’s not much but I’m ecstatic when I found out my boss already sent my salary just now. Our pay periods are as follow:

Days and hours from 25th – 9th paid on 15th of the month

Days and hours from 10th -24th paid on 30th of the month

So since I started January 24, my salary is only equivalent to 12 hours of my working time but I am not complaining. I think it pays way better than my 51talk tutoring gig. I still find the work a little hard but it’s nice because most of the time (like 85% of the time), it’s non-voice and I only do skype call whenever my boss needs to inform me about something work-related or I have to validate information with my supervisor or with other clinics that we handle.

1st

Tada! that’s the screenshot of the Paypal email I received earlier. I hope to receive more emails like these. hahaha

ooopppp!my kids are awake! gotta go! till next time!

New beginnings


One week has already passed since 2018. It’s been a very hectic and busy week for me. For one, I haven’t finished my Upwork freelance job which is supposedly good for a week only. Next is, I submitted lots of online applications and have scheduled interviews here and there (I even have an upcoming interview next Wednesday, good luck to me) also, interviews comes with tryouts so I have a long list of stuff to be done.  Unfortunately, I haven’t landed any permanent online job yet aside from my online tutorial. I’m still doing my ESL online tutorial and fortunately, almost all of my opened slots are booked.

Oh, I also submitted my resignation on my previous job which my TL didn’t take lightly because she guaranteed to the big bosses that I’d come back when I asked for a maternity leave extension so another bad record for me. I actually like my previous job minus the commuting part which takes ages, but, unfortunately, no one will be able to look after my 4-month-old baby because he has the tendency to cry non-stop at night and no one can soothe him except me (they tried but failed) so I have no option but to quit my job) My TL offered another ML extension because I reasoned for medical issues but I’m still undecided because I’m not sure what will be our plan for the future. I also don’t want to make promises I can’t keep and also wouldn’t want to put the company in jeopardy. I actually feel very guilty because my team’s performance would also be affected because I’m leaving, also, I had a good record before I went on leave but my kids come first.

decide

Anyhow, I’ll be texting my TL about my decision and I’m sure I’ll be scolded again because I am informing late again but que sera sera. I’m not a very good decision maker but they say bad decisions make good stories, don’t they?

I just have to trust that there is something good in every goodbye…

trust the magic of new beginnings

year ender


2017  is a tough year for me. but yes, here I am, still alive and kicking.

Though this year has brought many struggles, I have also been showered with lots of blessings.

This year, we welcomed the new addition to our family, my son Sebastian. Though my pregnancy and delivery had been tough, God has made me even tougher and for that, I am very thankful.

Also, 2017 brought me my first online job and that is my being an ESL online tutor. In addition, I got my one-time project based job in Upwork (kahit 1 week lang at maliit ang bayad atleast may trabaho at dagdag sa experience at portfolio)

Another thing, I got myself enrolled in 2 online courses which I have yet to finish, hoping I’d be able to finish it in time before I attended my Freelancer online training next year. ooppps that’s like in 1 day? good luck to me, hahaha

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So yeah, 2017 had not been bad as I had expected it to be. I’m a bit doubtful whether 2018 would be a good year for me but as the saying goes, habang may buhay may pag-asa (as long as you are alive, you have hope, tama ba? hahaha)

So before 2017 ends, let me greet everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR! good luck to us all! 😛