pakasalan mo yung taong mabubusog ka

sabi nila hindi nakakain ang panglabas na ichura, sabi pa nga ni Andrew E. humanap ka ng panget at ibigin mong tunay.

pero siguro swerte ako kasi yung taong pinakasalan ko nakakabusog na ang ichura nakakabusog pa ng puso at sikmura.


Sa tuwing nakikita ko ang asawa ko, gusto kong umeksena ng linyang “thank you Lord ha, pandesal lang naman hiningi ko, hamburger binigay nyo, may fries pa!” oo na, masyado kong literal, mukha lang akong palaisip pero ganyan ako kababaw, hahahaha 

but on a serious note, sa tuwing nakikita ko yung asawa ko, yung pakiramdam na ihahain na sayo yung pinakapaborito at pinakamasarap na pagkain para sayo (sa panahon na abot langit ung gutom mo) yun ang nararamdaman ko lalo na pag may dala siyang pagkain para sa akin hahaha (pero syempre gaguhan na lang kung sasabihin kong ganun parati, ano to, librong may ending tapos happily ever after.😈)

pakasalan mo yung taong bubusugin hindi lang ang sikmura mo kundi pati puso, kasi tandaan ang pagkain nabubulok, minsan hindi nauubos at yung tira-tira tinatapon. guilty ako sa part na to, kasi yung asawa ko nakakabusog, ako naman nakakagutom, maliban sa hindi ako mahilig at hindi masarap magluto, nung nagpaulan ata ng sweetness sa mundo, ang himbing ng tulog ko. nakakatuwa lang na understanding yung mister ko.

anyhow, sa sweetness lang ba nasusukat kung sino ang mas nagmamahal? hindi siguro? kasi kahit hindi ako sweet, hindi clingy, mas madalas na parang walang pakialam pero kung tatanungin niyo ko kung mahal ko yung asawa ko ?abay mahigit pa sa 100% porsyento ni taguro sasabihin kong Oo.

mamahalin ko siya sa paraang alam ko at walang makapipigil sakin sa ngalan ng buwan. ayy thank you.

oops hindi pa namin Anniversary, napagtripan ko lang umarte nakakainspire kasi si MEGumiho, ayan tuloy😸😻

confession of an inlababo

I have a confession to make.

When I agreed to be your girlfriend and I said I love you too, I did not mean it ( I just said it because it’s how its done in the movies). but, there’s a big BUT in there. I like you at that moment when I said “ano ba sinasabi ng babae kapag sinasagot na nya ung lalake” and I remembered you laugh. I regreted saying it as it was kind of a moronic question, but I’m a NBSB member before we met so what do you expect?It even weirded me out when I realized I like you. I mean, one look at you and I’m sure as hell others will agree that you give off that chickboy/bad boy vibe. Hitler’s (my dad) vibe when he was still in his prime according to my mom. One good girls (like me) should stay away from. Your sister even gave me a headstart and said ‘basta tol labas ako sa inyong dalawa ni kuya ah” which made me think twice before agreeing to go on a date with you. Would you believe that I almost backed out on our first date because I don’t think it’s a good idea to start with?

You might ask me why, Allow me to enumerate reasons not to go out with you.

Firstly, I don’t like egoistic guys and with my own definition of egoistic, you definitely fit in. Secondly, you’re talkative. I don’t like talkative guys that much. They are irritating to the ear. I for one is a quiet and a reserved person to start with so I thought why should I hang out with a talkies guy talkier than me? (I’d rather watch TV and listen to Boy abunda or John Lapus talking perky about a latest scandal of a famous showbiz personality.) Most of all, you’re very friendly to the opposite sex, a trait which most cheating bastards possess.

I could see imaginary flashing red lights warning me not to go but I still did. so why did I go out with you on that faithful day?

I was bored as hell because I wasn’t able to borrow ate ching’s laptop for a supposedly movie marathon. Ate Esther, my chatty roommate who’s fond of treating me to dinner and ice cream at the UP shopping center isn’t around. And above all, I was curious. I mean I haven’t been on a date since time immemorial. My first date experience was in jolibee and I can barely remember the face of the guy I went out with at that time. So I thought, why not give it a shot. Anyhow, it’s your treat meaning I’m not paying for anything so what do I have to lose? Also, I’ll get the chance to know if my impressions have some solid basis.

When we first went out, I was given advice what to do if ever you try to take advantage of me. One friend said that should you try to do something harassing, I should slap you with all my might and then walk out without looking back. Another one said I should scream my lungs out to get for help. One of my kuya-kuyahan even said, “ingatan mo ang puso mo, bata” and pat me on the head as if he’s a shaman blessing me to be protected from bad spirits. It’s quite silly but I can’t help but smile when I reminisce how they reacted when they found out I was going out on a date with you.

I thought that after our first date, you’ll realize what an ultimate bore I am but I was surprised that after our first date, comes the second, the third, the fourth, the fifth, the sixth, till I lost count how many times we went out.

How in the world did that happened? Was it like turned to love? Wondering when it started? I’m not so sure myself.

Was it the time you first texted and called me just to say you like me? (I almost fell of the bed when your message sink in)
Or was it the time that we watched I am legend and you let me borrow your jacket because I’m freezing cold?
Was it the time you hold my hand for the first time and you’re teasing me because my hand is icy and trembling?
Or was it the time you gave me yellow tulips?
Was it the time you offered to carry my bag knowing that I’ll decline because I’m too proud?
Or was it the time you gave your sister a chocolate for our tropa?
Was it the time you gave me a bouquet of flowers for valentines?
or was it the time you gave me an Ichigo(bleach) key chain? (which unfortunately is already decapitated)
Was it the time that you were able to persuade me to sing a Red Jumpsuit apparatus song?
Was it the time you confessed that when you treated me Tapsi from Roddicks before, you badly wanted the yolk which I don’t eat but you didn’t ask for it because you’re afraid that I’ll think that you’re a glutton?
Or was it the time you walked me home although it’s already late and you still need to travel like 2 hours just to get home to Bulacan?
Was it the time you brought me home and introduce me to your parents as your girlfriend?
Or was the time you made a love letter out of a bond paper (which reminded me of my excuse letter way back when I was still studying)?
Was it that time when we were world’s apart (LDR ang peg), but still, you managed to keep in touch and keep our love alive?

I still couldn’t remember when did I start falling and to tell you honestly, I’m still surprised that there is still “us” after more than 6 long years. I mean, we were apart for more than a year and you know how it goes with long distance relationships. Treasured promises ended up like castles in the sand, they just fade away.

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder but most often than not, they make the heart forget. But boy, I was surprised, you never did forget. You even helped me realize my dreams to work abroad. Sure it was tough, but you’re with me so I made it through.

It’s been almost a year since you asked me to marry you. And now, we only have a few weeks left till we say I do. We had it tough and maybe we’ll have it tougher but as long as we are together, I’m sure as hell we’ll be able to work things out so long as we want to. Our love story will never be perfect. But it’s damn real. We may never get to have our happily ever after all because we’re going to have so much more than that.

the proposal

16/8/13  11 o’clock pm

– tonight is one of the best nights of my life. bakit? kasi this is the night the love of my life (ayiie) proposed to me. What was supposedly a birthday party at the hotel turns out to be a proposal at a cafe by the beach.

I was like super haggard because I just got off from work when my KB dabarkads/future sister-in-law (ahem) texted me that we’ll go to a birthday party. Her exact message were “Aubu, Maida to. Alis tayo, punta taung birthday party sa hotel. Suot ka ng medyo formal ha. Derecho ka sa bahay. Hintayin kita. Nauna na sila doon eh. Sowsyal, maexperience ntn”. I actually wasn’t in the mood to attend a party but knowing that maida would leave the desert soon, I decided to go and prepare as soon as I reach our flat. As ate Tzie says before, we should spend more time together and bond as much as we can while we still can.

While on my way to their house, Maida called and told me to head straight to RAK wedding hall because she went there already. I arrived at the back of the wedding hall a few minutes to 11 o’clock. I saw so much locals  wearing conduras but no sign of Maida. I called her to ask if I’m in the right place then she told me that the place is actually opposite of the wedding hall which is the Costa Cafe. I checked out the place from afar since I can’t cross the streets yet and started wondering how come there were no signs of any happenings there. When I reach the place, I then saw kuya Benjie, ate Tzie and Dart in their usual comfy outfit. I was like, wow mali ba ito? bat ako lang nakadress? but nonetheless, I kept my composure, approached them and asked where is Maida and Ake (silently hoping that Maida would show up any minute wearing the same get up as mine) I remember kuya Benjie commenting “mainit ba?buti hindi ka pinagswimsuit ni Maida?” before telling me where they were to which I replied with a poker face because I don’t know what is going on. I started walking towards Maida and Ake, pointed specifically to what Maida was wearing (and guess what, she’s sporting her infamous style, shirts and jeans then slippers much to my dismay) I noticed that she’s taking a video of me as I walk towards them.  I turned my attention to Ake and there he was;silently sitting on the bench holding a long stemmed-rose which he gave me as soon as I stand next to him and gave me 3 yellow print paper. 3 words were there. One is “Will you marry me?”, next was “of course” and last was “yes”. I was so dumbfounded that I jokingly asked “ba’t walang no?” to which he replied “ayaw mo ata eh” but then I snatched the paper that says “of course”. He knelt down on one knee and offered me the box containing a golden ring, I felt a surge of butterflies in my stomach and the first words that I blurted was “anung gagawin ko?” I remember laughing like crazy because I don’t exactly know how to react. I mean, it’s not everyday that you get to have a marriage proposal isn’t it?and from a guy you love? aughhhh. I still can’t get over it. I’m officially engaged dude. I badly wanted to scream but they might think I’ve lost my sanity. Imagine me suppressing my kilig and smiling from ear to ear as I’m typing this entry on my phone. Waahh!kilig to the bones. Para kong gago. Always the late reaction.

After my labiduds’ proposal, Maida took some photos. While walking back to the cafe, she asked if I already had an idea about tonight to which I honestly answered that I have no idea at all. She has her doubts though. (ewan ko ba kung bakit feeling nya may alam ako eh wala naman talaga, pramis, mamatay man ako) Had I known about the proposal, I would have definitely put an effort to look pretty. Put a little make-up at least. But nil, I had none so I entered the battle with an oily face! (Heck, you could even fry an egg using that much oil in my face) I didn’t even combed my hair! darn it. aughh. but not that it matters. my labiduds doesn’t seem to mind. Amidst the disheveled hair, oily face, maton-like lakad, in the end, I’m still the one wearing the engagement ring. I’m so happy I could die anytime. (seriously, is this really me talking?)

Anyways, I saw that Maida already uploaded the video of the proposal in kuya Benj’s DartBench Photography page.

I have played the video a countless times today just to check if this were all a dream but it’s not. I’m wearing the ring as a hard core evidence!(insert uber smiling face here). This is by far, the most wonderful advance birthday present ever. Thank you God for giving me a wonderful guy for a fiancee. Thank you kuya Benjie. Thank you ate Tzie. Thank you Dart. Thank you Maida. Thank you bhe. I couldn’t thank you all enough. I just feel very blessed and loved.


pulang rosas


nung isang araw na pauwi ako galing clinic, nagtext ang labiduds ko na andun daw siya sa may supermarket tapat ng clinic namin. edi pumunta ako.

aubu: woi andito ka pala,

aubu’s labiduds: kanina pa kaya, antagal mo

aubu: eh peste ung mga doktor samin eh

aubu’s labiduds: oh (sabay abot ng isang tangkay ng pulang rosas)

aubu: huh?bat meron akong ganito?

aubu’s labiduds: bakit?ayaw mo?

aubu: hindi naman, nagtataka lang ako. (hindi naman namin monthsary or anniversary nung araw na un)

aubu’s labiduds: tanggapin mo na lang

aubu: sabi ko nga, salamat!  (abot tenga ang ngiti)

hindi ko alam kung anung nakain ng labiduds ko at out of nowhere naisip nyang bigyan ako ng bulaklak. hmm. baka ung ipinabaon ko sa kanya na makunat na beef tapa nung nagkita kami last week, wahahaha. pero wala naman akong natatandaang nilagay na gayuma dun.

anyway highway, basta, kinikilig ako. (hindi ko lang alam kung paano ikkwento sa paraang kikiligin din kayo, :P)


Dahil sa tuwing kinakain ng kawalang-kasiguraduhan at negatibong kaisipan ang utak kong baliko
Bigla ka na lang magpaparamdam at inaalis ang aking agam-agam

Kung sakaling ika’y nababalisa sa minsanang hindi ko pagpaparamdam
Paraan ko yan para ako’y mamiss mo naman

Dahil kahit minsan buong araw akong nagbabasa ng manga
O karaniwa’y gumagala at naglalagalag kasama ng aking katropa
O di kaya’y masyadong okupado ang isipan sa pag-iisip ng wala

Sa bawat gabi na ipipikit ko na ang aking mga mata at ako’y mahihimbing na
At sa bawat araw na gumigising ako sa umaga
Laman ka ng aking isipan sa tuwi-tuwina

confabulation of ideas at its best

sobrang antok na antok ako in the real essence of the word antok
kulang na lang maglatag ako ng banig sa ilalim ng station ko para humilata at matulog
kasalanan ito ng my girlfriend is a gumiho.
nag15minute break ako dahil ibang lebel na talaga ang antok na nararamdaman ko. Nakatulog naman ako, kala ko sobra 1 oras at overbreak na naman ako kasi nanaginip pa ako. Sabi na eh, proven and tested na may curse ang mga upuan sa lounge namin. Napanaginipan ko na antagal naming naghanapan ng utol kong bunso sa airport. At nang makita ko siya, mukha na siyang iiyak dahil hindi pa ako dumarating. Kung bakit ko nabanggit ang airport ay dahil susunduin ko siya sa loob ng ilang oras. Perstaym nyang mag-isang sasakay ng eroplano. Dati kasi lagi kaming magkakasama nila mama lalo na pag magbabakasyon sa probinsiya. Sa kasamaang-palad, hindi makakasama si mama dahil madami siyang inaasikaso. Kaya siguro napanaginipan ko ung utol ko. Siguro ako din kinakabahan, haha, sana maging okay lang siya. Pero sabagy malaki na ung mokong na yun. Pero maiba ako, in all fairness, hindi ako OB. haha


batiin nyo ako, monthsarry namin ng aking boypren kahapon
hindi ako mahilig magbilang ng kung ilang months, days, hours, minutes or seconds na kami.
basta alam ko lang pag 11 monthsarry namin,
pag sumaktong april tapos 11, anniversarry naman namin
may kakilala kasi ako na all week/month/year long celebration ang monthsarry nila
basta kakaiba siya, daysarry, weeksarry, monthsarry at anniversarry; andaming sarry
siguro kung may hoursarry, minutesarry, secondsarry at microsecondsarry, pinatos na din niya
sa status message ko sa facebook, sabi ko, ambilis ng buwan, kasi monthsarry na ulit namin
sabi ng boypren ko, oo nga, kasi 37 months na kami
hindi ko na napansin, haha, akalain mong matagal na pala kami
bigla ko tuloy naalala na ito ang pang-walong monthsarry namin na hindi na kami magkasama
lecheng distansya, panira ng moments 😦
anyhow, sa totoo lang hindi ko akalain na kami pa hanggang ngayon
alam nyo naman ang mga relasyon na nagiging long distance
pati feelings nila nagiging ocean’s apart din
pero nakakatuwa lang na kami pa din, hehe
(insert super smiling face here)
salamat sa celepono, facebook at skype
our love still thrives
it transcends through time and distance
anak ng! gumaganun pa ako, haha
bading na bading lang


sinusubukan kong gumawa ng lab istori ngayon base sa mga kaibigan at kakilala ko
may naisip na kong title ng series
Kingkong Barbie Series (sobrang pinag-isipan ko talaga to)
Bahay ni Tito Series (eto slight lang na pinag-isipan)
pangarap kong isend ito sa Philippines Heart Romance
at baka-sakali
nakikinita-kinita ko na madaming bibili ng series ko na ito
(yan ang tinatawag na self-confidence!haha)
kung kelan ko ito matatapos? mga after 20 years siguro, hehe
hindi ako magaling na manunulat
last time na gumawa ako ng lab istori,
sandamukal na tawa mula sa kaklase ang napala ko
pero gusto ko pa din subukang gumawa
wala namang time limit at pass the papers sa paggawa nito
anyhow, hindi naman ako professional writer
kung san may boss na nag-aantay ng manuscript
so wish me luck, wahaha


may sinalihan akong contest
isang malaking himala pag nanalo ako
pero sana maghimala pa din, haha
gusto ko pa naman ng kindle 3
dun ko balak ilagay ung mga manga na gusto kong basahin
alam kong pwede sa dsi ung manga kaso maliit kasi ung screen
kaya mas gusto ko na ung kindle kahit black and white
may nagsuggest na mag-Ipad na lang ako
kaso haler, ang mahal
so erase erase erase
pag hindi ako nanalo, magttyaga muna ako sa dsi ko


speaking of documents
dumating na ung package ko na galing ng prc at dumaan sa dfa
ito ang umubos ng 2 weeks worth of allowance ko sana
ito ang dahilan kung bakit puro hotta rice ang pagkain ko for 2 weeks
ako na ang bitter, haha
pero ang nakakatawa nung makita ko ung dokumento pagkagising
para lang akong timang, niyakap ko kagad ung dokumento
as if makakalipad na agad ako sa kung saan
gamit ang dokumento kong may pulang laso
dapat navideohan ako habang nagtatalon dahil hawak ko na un eh
muka lang akong batang binigyan ng peyborit nyang kendi


naalala ko
andami ko pang gala na dapat iblog
naku naku
ako na ang busy-busyhan
sana sipagin ako ulit gaya nito
para naman maiblog ko ng bonggang bongga ang mga dapat ko pang iblog

hokku haiku

araw mo ngayon
mahal kitang lagi na

malakas na ulan
dahil sayo lumusong ako sa baha
leptus wag kang lalapit

abot tanaw
kelan ka magiging abot kamay?


kung asan ka man
andito lang ako iniisip ka

dalawin mo na ang butas kong bulsa
pulubi na ako



Marami akong gustong maging at nais gawin. Gusto kong maging pintor, astronaut, arkitekto, isang musikero, piloto, nars, siyentipiko, manunulat, iskultor, at sundalo. Nais kong maglakbay sa iba’t ibang lugar at kumain ng lahat ng espesyal na pagkain sa lugar na mapupuntahan ko. Gusto kong subukan ang mga buwis-buhay na libangan gaya ng bungee jumping, scuba diving, cliff diving at sky diving. Gusto kong matutong magpalipad ng eroplano at helicopter. Pangarap kong magkaron ng sampung iba’t ibang buhay sa sampung iba’t ibang dimensyon. Nang sa ganun, ipapanganak ako ng sampung beses sa sampung ibat’t ibang lokasyon, at kakain ako ng sampung buhay na katumbas na mga pagkain, magkakaroon ng sampung sari-saring karera at higit sa lahat ay sampung beses ding iisang tao.

– tagalog version ng facebook note ko, hehe

nagsimula ang lahat sa isang sulyap..

“pag-ibig, pag pumasok sa puso ninuman,
hahamakin ang lahat masunod ka lamang.”

inaantok ako,
sino ang may sala?
hindi ako kundi ung kaibigan kong praning.
kanina sa bahay, supposedly, natutulog ako ng mahimbing,
payapa, nananaginip.

kaso sa eksenang hapit na hapit na sa tulog ang mata ko,
ung tipong papikit na siya dahil nataymingan ko na ang antok ko,
biglang nagring ang aking celepono.

1 word sa utak ko: bwisit
pagkacheck ko sa phone ko, ikaw pala ang tumatawag
sinagot ko ang celepono,
umaatikabong monologue mo na naman ito.

nakilala kita nung 1st year college,
mayabang ka, bully,
pero dahil mabait ako (weh)
nagkasundo tayo. (hahaha)

karaniwan kitang katext at katawagan.
hindi dahil nagkakamabutihan tayo
kundi dahil ginagawa mo akong concierge/information center
ng whereabouts ng iyong pinakamamahal na babae
na kaibigan ko din.

first year college pa lang uber crush mo na siya
una mo siyang naispotan sa St. Joseph, diba?
at sa unang sulyap na un, alam mo nang tinamaan ka sa kanya.
ang kaso, naging type din siya ng katropa mo at niligawan siya,
naging sila pa nga, yun tuloy naghanap ka ng iba,

naging sila ng tropa mo,
nagkaron ka din ng syota.
naghiwalay sila,
eventually, naghiwalay din kayo ng syota mo.

at kinalaunan, bumalik ang nakaraan
at muli mong sininta ang mahal kong kaibigan
kaso gaya ng dati, wala pa din, basted
pero hanga ako sayo (walang malisya to tol)
grabe ka kasi,
ilang beses ka na nyang binasted, sige ka pa din,
sabi mo sakin mag-aantay ka kahit matagal
eh pano kung wala ka namang inaantay?

karaniwang durog sakin ang ego mo,
kung laitin kasi kita at asarin, pamatay
pero ewan ko ba kung makapal ka lang talaga
kasi hindi tumatalab ang aking pang-aalaska
pero tol, minsan gumising ka
na wala ka naman talagang aasahan sa kanya
sabi nga sa isang palabas na napanuod ko,
there are many fishes in the sea
hanap ka na lang ng iba

kaso minsan,
gusto din kitang suportahan,
pero karaniwan gusto kitang batukan
subalit anu bang magagawa ko,
kung sa isang sulyap mo lang sa kaibigan ko,
dumadagundong na ang mundo mo?

kaya nga bangag ako ngayon dahil sa panggugulo mo
minsan tumayming ka ha?
hehe, gudlak sau. 🙂