After hiatus of like 3 years was it? I’m here again bleeding my brains out.
For some reason, I just decided to check this website out of the blue and the first thing I did was to check my first and last blog entry.
I checked my first blog and I did it around July of 2009 and my last one was on May of 2020.
And here I go again. I am currently sitting on the 5th row of my Introduction of Nursing Research class. We are doing an activity of 2 research papers, identifying hypothesis, variables and whatnots and instead of doing so, I am blogging right now and not even sure what I should blog about so I’ll just let my fingertips do the talking or was it my brain?
To myself from 2009, not that you know right now but I am studying nursing again in the land of kangaroos and koalas. I’m married with 2 beautiful but with an attitude kids, a daughter who looked like a splitting image of his dad and a son who seems to look like me most of the time except for the eyes I guess. How is it possible that a foetus grows inside you yet they end up not looking like you? How unfair is that?hahaha
I am struggling right now with everything, I mean you know we’ve always struggled. I am just struggling in another land like I how I used to do in the desert. The introvert in us is struggling everyday wishing we could crawl back in my mom’s womb and just dissolve into nothingness most of the time. If it’s hard for you to relate in your own tribe in your own country, imagine how harder it is being in the multicultural mosaic. And nursing? Not really the most introverted profession we could choose right? How am I surviving so far? Not really sure. Just waking up everyday still and showing up even if I don’t feel like it at all.
It’s raining quite a bit outside the building where I am at. It’s gloomy and sums up how I feel inside in some other days. I still feel invisible sometimes. You must know as you are me. I’m still hoping for better days still. I think I still got a long way to go. Not looking for any unsolicited advice though. I’ll ask when I need and want one.
Oh well, I got another class to go. I’ll see you when I look back.